I have been absent, and you were right to be upset.
Not busy. Absent. There is a difference and I have been hiding behind
the easier word.
You asked more than once. Every time I answered with work, and every time you were
the one who understood — which only made it easier for me to keep doing it.
Being understanding is not the same as being treated well.
You have been patient with me for a long time, Habibo. Patience should
not have to be endless.
We are in the same city. That is the part I keep coming back to. Not a distance
problem. Just me, choosing badly, and calling it a schedule.
So let me stop explaining and plan it instead.
Everything after this is yours to choose. The day, how I come to you,
where we eat, what we do after.
You choose. I show up. That is the whole arrangement.
And if you are still angry — that is fair. You can be angry and still pick a day.
— your Ishtiaq